This photo has been sitting in my head for a while, I sketched out the idea last year and forgot about it until recently. Originally, it represented the feeling of being on the outside looking in, not quite fitting. Given current events and the Stay at Home order in effect, this photo feels a bit sarcastic now. I’m so thankful for the ways God has provided during these strange times but I’m also ready to leave the house and not look back.
Where do I even begin… this session was about 10 months in the making and so much fun from start to finish! Norah reached out to me last winter while I was still living in North Carolina. We went over a few different fine art themes and Norah decided on a mermaid session! We could not have asked for better weather the day of the shoot and all of the little details fell right into place. Together we created three fine art images and captured some more traditional portraits as well – Norah rocked them all!!
Fuel to the Fire
I’ve been struggling with my creative process lately. It’s been about a month and a half since I’ve created a conceptual image but I think that I really needed that time to get recharged. I started this photo a couple of months ago and it sat on my computer until I could figure out how to finish it. It didn’t turn out exactly how I envisioned it but finishing this image is motivating me to finish the other ones that I’ve started!
On the Up and Up
So far, this is one of my favorite images created this year. It was so much fun to put together and I’m realizing that strange lighting is becoming a big motivator for me. I’m all about that light! Much of this photo was about me trying a new editing technique. I really do love putting together levitation images because I have always loved the idea of flying and dream about it often. Because of this though, levitation photos are a fallback for me when I’m feeling uninspired. Almost as if, “I can’t think of anything new and exciting… where’s a place I haven’t levitated before???”. With this image though I was transforming my comfort with levitation photos and turning it into something completely different for me which felt good. This year has been full of so much growth for me and my conceptual photography!
This image has personal significance to me because of the events that have transpired within the past couple of weeks. Since I was recently in a car accident things have been messy and getting my life back to normal has taken time. I’m at the point now where the worst is over and I’m moving forward again. It feels good!
Rain, Rain, Go Away
A few weeks ago I bought a car from my grandma, it’s a great car and one that my grandmother was sad to part with but she was in need of something different and the car she had was perfect for me. This past Friday, on my way home from work, a guy blew a red light going 65 mph and ran right into me and my grandma’s car. By the grace of God I wasn’t hurt and my car is fixable which is a relief. It was a bad situation but it turned out to be an incredible story. Through that accident I met a handful of amazing people who sat with me, hugged me, and encouraged me for an hour and a half until the entire ordeal was over and I could drive home.
Our sermon at church a couple of weeks ago was preached on Romans 8:28-39 and it tells of God’s never ending love for his people, the perfect plan he has, and the wonderful ways he works in the lives of those he has called to him. Despite what happens in my life I know that God is on his throne and is being glorified through whatever path he has set out before me. Often times I pray for God’s blessings in my life and while I can clearly see them I can also see the struggles that he allows me to go through. This past weekend has reminded me that though we might not like the rain, it’s what brings growth. Likewise, the struggles we go through are often what refine us. Sometimes I get so caught up in hoping that the rain will pass that I forget to look for the good that will come from it.
Monsters Under the Beds
Like most kids I had a slew of irrational fears. Growing up, one of my biggest fears was the monster beneath my bed. In order to fall asleep I had to be safely nestled in the middle of my mattress so nothing was able to reach up and snatch me. I tend to create dark images because I love debunking the fears that I have. If I’m able to recreate the situation I’m afraid of I can see all of the parts that go into making it scary. Once I see the effort that goes into it, it becomes more of a logical process and my fear is gone. While I’m not afraid of the monster beneath my bed anymore, creating this image was eerily nostalgic for me. It also made me realize that in order for a monster to fit under my bed it would have to be insanely small.
Here’s some behind the scenes insight…
This image represents a girl whose head is so stuck in the clouds that she can’t see anything going on around her. Her clouded vision is keeping her from seeing the truth of the situation she is in.
On a side note, I made the cloud out of balloons and stuffing. I didn’t think it was going to turn out but I’m actually really happy with it!
Last week marked the first week in 2016 that I didn’t create a conceptual image. To be honest I knew it would happen sooner rather than later but this in no way diminished my disappointment. One of my biggest struggles in life is against the clock, I am forever running late to things. If I have an appointment at 9:15 you can count on me being there at 9:20 on the nose. It’s not that I lack respect for others’ time, or even a watch that tells the correct hour, my tardiness lies in the simple belief that I have more time to complete tasks than I actually do. See, in addition to being perpetually late I am also constantly adding things to my plate. Regardless of whether it fits in my schedule, I have an interest in doing it, or am skilled to complete the task in any way, if someone asks me to do something chances are I’ll accept without hesitation. This also goes for taking on personal projects out of obligation. I’m a slow learner but slowly I am learning that saying no to others, and even myself, is sometimes the better choice. Maybe if I can master the use of a firm “No”, my internal clock will cease to be five minutes in the past. It’s a long shot but one that just might work. It would also probably help if I didn’t like to sleep in so much… but that’s a discussion for another day!
Behind the scenes…
This is the third and final image for my first small series. I may end up continuing with this idea but right now I need a break from bird masks and covering myself with black paint. This image did not turn out like anything I had in mind but I am happy with the turn that it took. Originally I was going to be stuck inside a giant bird cage while the crow looked at me from the outside, however, the bird cage that I bought to use just made everything look more confusing. It’s week 8 and I’m slowly starting to let go of all those imperfections that I tend to cling so tightly to… progress is being made!
For now this is the final chapter in the ‘story’ I’ve been telling with my last two bird photos. They show a girl slowly letting the darkness inside of her grow larger until she loses herself completely. What started out as something so small soon devoured her. The crow, and the corruption it represents, went from being the girl’s friend to being something she was enslaved to. Now a renegade, the girl realizes that her changed allegiances have her serving the wrong side.
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world.
1 Peter 5:8-9